Preparing for #2

I started this post two weeks ago, after a sleepless night:


"It's 7 a.m. on Sunday morning, just over two weeks away from #2's scheduled arrival (yep, that's right folks, I'm scheduled for a repeat c-section on May 1st. My doctor gave me a 15% chance of being able to have this baby naturally.) and I've pretty much been awake since 3 a.m. Now I don't know if this has ever happened to you, but what do you do when you can't sleep?! I spent a long time just laying here hoping I'd fall asleep, that didn't work. I read for a while, but my Kindle battery died. I've watched a couple episodes of Parenthood on Netflix. Mostly though, I've just been thinking. Thinking about how nervous I really am to be a mom of two! I've spent the last couple weeks washing clothes, fixing up the room my girls will share, setting up a makeshift nursery on the first floor so Rosie won't be bothered when her sister is hungry in the middle of the night, and doing all sort of other things people do when they're about to have a baby. I'm pretty much ready for this baby's arrival...physically. However, I'm just not sure I'm ready emotionally. Will Rosie feel like I'm giving all my attention to her little sister? Will she even like her? It's been hard enough being a working mom of one, how can I balance two? How am I possibly going to love both of these girls equally? In reality, I know this is ridiculous, and probably totally normal. I also know that as soon as she arrives all of this apprehension will melt away. I really am excited to meet this little one, we all are. Rosie gives her sister hugs and kisses every night before she goes to bed. I don't know how much she really understands it all but we're trying to talk it up as much as possible. I guess we will know in two weeks..."


Today, is April 26th, I'm just a few days away from the big day!  The last two weeks have been busy and I can't believe just how close we are to the reality of being a family of four.  Bobby, Rosie and I are so very excited!  Just yesterday, Rosie started saying the her sister was her best friend (this means I may have been replaced, but I'm ok with that!).    This week hasn't gone the way I had planned.  I was supposed to work until tomorrow but my doctor told me at my appointment on Tuesday that I needed to be done.  My blood pressure was up a little and with my history of preeclampsia with Rosie, she wants to be safe.  So now, we wait for Tuesday, or sooner if baby decides to change our plans again :)