More unexpected moments

We had a bit of a rough start to our day.  Annie's bilirubin numbers were too high, so we're spending another day here at the hospital so she can spend some time in the tanning bed.   I had high hopes of going home today and starting normal life with my little family.  Not long after those hopes were dashed because of numbers that were too high, we found out that Annie's blood sugar numbers were too low!  Needless to say, I spent some time in tears this morning.  Things are just not going as planned.  I was able to nurse Rosie with no problems and was so proud of myself for not having to use formula (not that there is anything wrong with that, but I had a goal and was proud to have accomplished it) and I am disappointed that I won't be able to say the same thing about Annie.  We've been battling this blood sugar issue since we were in recovery, where she got her first taste of formula to get bring her critically low numbers up.  Since she is so tiny, she has had to have her heel poked every so often and until this morning the  numbers had been "normal".  The hope now is that the little bit of formula, plus what she's getting from me and the tanning bed will fix all the problems and we'll go home tomorrow morning.  Until then, I've been told to relax and let the hospital staff wait on me.   Several friends have told me to enjoy the extra time of rest, and I'm trying my best.  


However, my mind has been racing.  I've had so many "what if" moments and of course I've been worrying about the health of my baby.  In the midst of all of this I keep replaying the conversations I had with my OB yesterday.  She mentioned that Annie's blood oxygen levels were in the critical range at the time of her birth and that it was a good thing that we came in and had her when we did or things could have been "pretty bad".  It wasn't until a while after this conversation took place that I realized just what that meant.  We are so very blessed to have a healthy baby girl!  Circumstances could have been much different.  When I look at things from that perspective, bilirubin and blood sugar numbers or staying another day in the hospital, just really doesn't matter so much!